Wednesday, 2 November 2011

a little background

well im 34.I have 2 children.i am single.Left an abusive unhelpful guy at the beginning of this year.i am just getting my cofidence back,alot of people think im bubbly confident outgoing,sighs if only they knew how my heart aches to be loved in a nice way.im curvy. ok looking but even though people tell me im gorgeous (more of that later)after so many years of being told otherwise its so very hard to believe.
so i sat in my house one night drinking red wine thinking how i was going to actually get to meet someone?my attempts to go out have always fallen through at the last minutes(i hate being let down when ive got my hopes up)
so i went on a certain website and looked in the single mums forum and there was a couple of threads about a certain website,so i took a look
and then thought what have i got to lose!!!!so off i went created a profile uploaded a pic that didnt think would attract that much attention!HOW WRONG COULD I BE!!!!was immediately swamped with messages, would like to meets and your time line here messages!!and then started  to cringe lol
i also decided to make an effort not to go for my usual stereotype as they havent been to pleasant of late!so took an interestin one guy and started chatting then things got decidedly naughty!!!lol but i indulged am not ashamed to say some pictures went back and forth!!!!and then never heard from him again!!
ah well on to the next one(s)
then came across 2 guys and started up conversations that went on and on and on until one mentioned he had a high sex drive to which i replied interesting and thus it started lots of talking he sent his number i rang we met a few of times and then i took the next step!!he came over and well we had some naughty fun!!and i just made me feel better about me!and we also talk about things rather than wham bam thank you madame
and then there is my shy one.who i find hugely cute,but alarm bells were ringing as he would only chat to me via e mail!so i pushed and pushed and in the end he admitted he was married!!!to say i was gutted was an understatement!!
next blog married men and other things!!!